no matter what...

always remember that no matter what im always here 4 u...

u may never understand why im still stayin' inspite of eveything...

but i want u to know that even i, myself can't understand...

i still remember the night when you told me that, you are a dangerous man...

and a difficult man...

i should have taken it seriously...

but anyways, didn't control myself loving u...

and i will never change...

do u still remember? when i told you, you are a lucky man coz u have me...i said it coz when i said "i love u", means no matter what i cant make myself hate u... i cant even open my heart to anyone...coz i already gave it to u...
the only man whom i said i love you's...

maybe, u might be thinking im crazy bec..im loving a man who's running away from me...

i am not!

juz learned and realized lately, the true meaning of love..wont fade away,,,

i was so serious to u when i started my relationship w/ u and i didn't play...all i want is to tke cre of u and love...

hope 1 day, i can find myself sitting and talking to u for awhile...

tnx for reading....

my love is here

words nothing but words
for me to show
how much my love for you
unfolds trough troubles and tears
this love is real
and i need you to know

eventhough we're far apart
you're right beside me in my heart

dont you know my love is here
dont you know my love is real
you should know by now
this much is true
my love is real for you

time, nothing but time
to make up your mind
i'll give you all that you want
i'd like you to know that i wont let go
till you come back to me

and eventhough you're far away
im right beside you day by day
you're right beside me in my heart
my love is here for you...


ALWAYS REMEMBER THIS...YOU'LL ALWAYS BE MY BABY! I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU!

sexy vs. pretty talked

sexy: me, still hoping and praying...
sexy: im dating for fun...
sexy: but im not searching...
sexy: coz even im with other guys,im still searching for his presence.
sexy: my mind is being occupied by him...
pretty: hay, same here mare...
pretty: but i dont want to waste my time waiting for my FWB
pretty: coz i dont know till when i will be crazy for him
pretty: i want to enjoy and atleast be hapi
sexy: then good for u...
sexy: too bad for me...
sexy: :(
sexy: coz me, i only loved once...wholeheartedly...
sexy: juz now i believe for love...A love that is unconditional
sexy: the love that never ask anything in return...
sexy: i couldn't believe myself! OMG! this is not me..
sexy: many times during my prayer time, if only God is visible infront of me, I might gonna shake Him and bug Him so He will give what Im asking from Him...
sexy: coz i dont want any other man anymore
pretty: ehehe...goodluck mare
pretty: i know we will be hapi later on...
pretty: soon...
sexy: i know...
sexy: Im so patient tho
sexy: im sure, I will have patience for my BFF...
sexy: not because i love him but i like him as well..
sexy: i didn't have this feeling b4 to anyone else...
sexy: i couldn't have this feeling now with anyone else..
sexy: im so comfortable with him...
sexy: i feel so secured and safe when im with him..
sexy: i felt that i am loved during those times we were together...
sexy: and i can always be myself when Im with him
sexy: i dont get bored talking to him even with non sense topics...
sexy: many times, i heard from u that u r thinking of yourself as a late bloomer...
sexy: but i think Im the one..
sexy: :(
sexy: pakshet na lalaki un...
sexy: he should have not showed me that he's a good man
sexy: he should have not showed that he's gentleman and nice
sexy: i shouldn't have known him..
sexy: we shouldn't be friends... i shouldn't let him entered my life... i shouldn't entertained all his invitations to me...
sexy: pakshet sya...
sexy: if time will come and he's gonna comeback, he'll be the one to get crazy over me. i promise that!
sexy: he'll get crazy up to the extent that he wont let me go anymore..lols
pretty: naku naku naku! be ready bff!
pretty: maybe u wont let him go out of his room anymore ha..24/7 na kau
pretty: hahahaha! jokies
sexy: gaga!crazy! that's not what i mean...but u gave me an idea. lols
sexy: so, maybe...maybe.. hahaha!
pretty: yeah, mare u r super late bloomers
sexy: mare, u know that i dont believe in love before...since i was a lil kid i didn't believe that there's such thing called love
pretty: naku naku naku! that's why God tested you...
sexy: korek!
sexy: before its so easy for me to let go of someone if he doesn't want me anymore...juz one drop of tear then i can easily move on
sexy: so easy for me to change a man...and i always have reservation for myself if i am into a relationship..
sexy: my mind was set that i should love myself better than loving someone
sexy: u know what made me crazy thinking now?i have eaten my words: I WILL NEVER EVER FALL IN LOVE and NEVER NEVER WILL I TRUST ANY MAN
sexy: and i cant accept within me, why did i fall in love now? why him?
sexy: why did i found in him all the qualities of a man I've been searching for?
sexy: i couldn't believe it that the man of my fantasy is existing in this real world...
sexy: now, the problem is how can i win the man of my fantsay so he will be my reality?
pretty: hayyyyy! thats the biggest questioon mare
pretty: coz the biggest dream requires a risk... high risk yan mare
pretty: so better be ready but worth it
sexy: im ready to take the chance.. im ready to take the risk
sexy: im always like this...risk taker.. lols
sexy: i have a perseverance attitude and im not that easy to give up in anything
sexy: i know, in my heart, love will lead him back to me :)
sexy: i know, im the only one he's gonna search later on...only me! he's gonna comeback to me..
sexy: he will still end up to me...hahahahahaolga
sexy: =))
pretty: hahahha! loka ka mare...dont be like that coz i might gonna come back to FWB
pretty:lols
pretty: but i would be happy if it will happen
sexy: hay naku mare...
pretty: but i admit, hapi ako now..i dont know...but im hapi with FBW even we are not so ok now..
pretty: he's there or not, im hapi
sexy: u r hapi coz someone's making u smile..meaning, u dont love him that much... half half only..
sexy: im hapi too...trying...lol!
sexy: but u know God wants a complete happiness for His children. so, He knows what and who will make us hapi...
sexy: so, for sure, in the right time, He's gonna give that... coz if we are hapi, God's heart is happier... if we r crying, much more, God is crying for us...
sexy: Coz He loves us, His children and He doesn't want us to be hurting, sacrificing and crying..
sexy: sometimes, People dont get the answers to their prayers because of impatience..they have in mind that God wouldn't answer their prayers so they r turning back and searching for an options...
sexy: what they don't know, the delivery of an answer is now coming from the Lord but people get tired in waiting so, they missed the answer....
pretty: hmmmm....
sexy: that's why, Im holding on with my faith...
pretty: naku im gonna go back to FWB
sexy: lols
sexy: hehehe
pretty: hay naku mare
sexy: u know what's the meaning of faith in the bible? faith is hoping for the unseen...